I am well aware of the fact, that most people that probably see me on Facebook, Instagram or Youtube assume my life is all colourful and amazing.
Guess what? Wrong.
Like most of us, we tend to only show the positive moments in our life on Social Media.
Let’s go back to when I felt like nothing made sense anymore.
Last year my ex boyfriend and me broke up after almost two years of relationship. On the one hand I felt released and I realised I could not have made a better choice. On the other hand it hurt. So damn much. I thought he was the one. The one I was going to have an amazing life with.
And to be honest. It took me quite a while to get over it. Especially, because shortly after the break up, he got into a new relationship. At a stage, that I was not even able to get any guy close to me. I have lost all faith.
So, I decided a new chapter was going to begin for me as soon as I go to France to finish my last semesters. I was going to meet new people, have fun and work hard on my dreams. I set very high expectations for that part of my life. But well, as you can imagine, it did not come like that. Instead I found myself in a very depressed state, not wanting to leave, not wanting to see anyone, not knowing how I will survive a second semester in this country.